I can't believe that Gabi will be 4 months old on Friday! WOW! what a crazy 4 months it has been and time has flown by like crazy. I feel so blessed to have been able to be at home with her and sadly that has come to an end... i have to go back to work in the morning =( I am so sad about it. On one had I'm excited to see everyone and catch up on things, but on the other I DONT want to leave Gabi. I am not worried about her care or anything I just don't want to miss out on any thing. I want to be there for her everyday and see her smile listen to her giggle and talk, and most of all feel her love. Just looking at her melts me, makes me smile, and makes a bad day good. I worry that the stress of work could interfere with my moods. I dont want to be that stressed out onery person that I can be when ive had a bad day at work and I most of all dont want to ever take it out on her. I pray that never happens. I know coming home to her will make everything better. How could it not, just look at her! 
The last 4 months have had there ups and downs that for sure, everything that happened with Gabi when she was born, I had emergency gallbladder surgery, my sweet grandma was diagnosed with breast cancer,and I had a close childhood friend pass away. None of which i expected would have happened. My maternity leave was supposed to be the most relaxing carefree few months of my life and im pretty sure it was some of the most stressful and eventful months of my life! I did get some good relaxing days with Gabi for sure I guess I just pictured things a little different in my head! 
Gabi is such a good baby. I really can't complain about anything. She has slept through the night since the day I brought her home. I wake up around 7am to feed her and then we both sleep in together till at least 10am! I know I am spoiled but I know that all good things come to an end so I'm milking every but of that one! Gabi hardly ever cries when she does have a tantrum I don't know how to handle it at times I wonder what has happened to my sweet little girl! They never last long and I mostly have to laugh when it happens because she definitly knows how to tell me she is pissed off!
Gabi is sooo strong! She tries to sit her self up all the time. if she has a hold of my fingers she will pull herself up. she holds her head up really well too. she loves to be sitting up so she can look around at everything. I walk around the house alot holding her so she can peek over my shoulder, she usually has her little arm under her chin resting her chubby cheeks in it, its the cutest thing ever!
Latley Gabi has been infatuated with her tongue. she is always licking things,blowing bubbles, sticking it out or even chewing one it. When I hold her over my shoulder my shirt is always soaked in slobber from her licking me! 
Gabi has found her voice and is always talking! I can tell by listening to her tones if she is happy, excited, mad, tired, hungry, or even bored! Moms are powerful beings with amazing insticts! I love Gabi's giggle. It never ceases to make me smile and she will brighten up an entire room. The first big smiles and giggles made me so happy I cried! There is nothing like a happy baby! Another thing I love is Gabi's cuddles. She loves to nestle into my chest, lift her head up smile at me and bury it again! There is nothing like a cuddly baby and she knows just how to get me to melt!
When Gabi is tired she gets a little restless. She will be dead asleep and she kicks her legs like kung fu panda! most babies kick straight out, which Gabi does when she is awake and playing, but when she is tired she kicks her legs straight out to the sides its hilareous! 
Gabi started her early intervention this month. The therapist was very pleased with her development, muscle tone, and motor skills. She is a little slower than most babies in her motor skills but she is still right on track for the most part. Alot of it has to do with being in the hospital for 6 weeks in my opinion, She is 4 months old but as far as her development goes she is behind because of what she went through. She will catch up! It is very common for babies with downs to be alot further behind in development but Gabi is out to prove us all wrong! She is the strongest most determined baby ive ever met! We took gabi to the Down Sydrome Clinic at Primary Childrens a few weeks ago. She is adverage in her height and weight and is growing very well. she is still pretty small compared to a normal baby chart, she is only in the 12 percentile, but has continued to gain weight and grow. I had to put away all her newborn clothes this week and she has grown out of size one diapers =( that makes me sad cause she is growing up so quickly. Every day is a new adventure and I love everything about her! Her smile, her giggle, her puppy dog eyes with the most perfect puckered bottem lip that will melt anyone (this could be dangerous in the future when she knows how to use it on mom and dad to get what she wants!) her cry, her whine, her perfect pink lips, her long eylashes, her little monkey pinching toes, her chubby cheeks, her chubby legs! Her dipples on her knees and the roll on her knee cap, her little button nose and little double chin, her hairy little bum (yes she has a cute little hairy bum with a big dark looking bruise that I call the mark of the mexican!) her perfect little fingernails and fingers, the roll on the back of her neck, and of course her beautiful black hair! I could keep going ang going and going! The point is I love her more than anything in this world. I want to spend every second with her. I am truly blessed to be her mother. I have never felt so much love for someone in my life and I have never felt that same love in return so strongly. Being a Mother is the most precious gift that has ever been given to me and i cherish every second of it. I dont know how i could go through this life feeling the same joy without Gabi in it. I thank God every day for giving her the stregnth to survive, to fight for her life and to bless mine. She is the purest love i have ever felt and when I look into her eyes I can't help but feel at peace knowing that I have the honor of being her mother forever!!!
August 2012
14 years ago
