5... 6... 7...Weeks .... is coming way too soon!

So I'm going through the normal anxiety that I'm sure every first time Mother feels before they have a baby.... I constantly have a nott in my stomach and every once in a while I feel like I'm going to puke or pass out!

My origanal due date is March 10th.... 5 Weeks away.... and who knows what happens if she decides to come early... March 26th is what they changed my due date to after my first ultra-sound... at that time I was pissed and I thought that I might kill the doctor... Now I think that 2 1/2 more weeks is completly doable! In fact I might keep praying that she is a stubborn one that doesnt want to come! (I saw that now but I may kick myself later who knows!)

Part of the anxiety is that some of the People I know that have been pregnant with me are starting to pop their little ones out... and that means I know that I'm next! I'm not scared for the labor and delivery part ( just yet anyway!) Im scared for the rest of my life knowing that it will never be the same. It will never be just Gio and I at home alone with nothing to worry about but ourselves. Im a little scared that I may not love being a Mother as much as i should... in fact what if I really hate it ... I doubt that will happen but my mind keeps playing tricks on me! I also keep freaking out that Gio will be gone when I have her... he is going to vegas for a few days in 2 weeks, and he sucks at answering his phone when he is at work! i really dont want to have her alone i might kill him!

The baby has been super active the last couple weeks kung foo-ing me like crazy! Before I could see my stomach mover and feel the little bumps... now I feel baby limbs its a little weird but very fansinating! Gio likes to play with her but he also gets a little freaked out at times!

I feel very lucky to have had a super easy pregnancy.... so far I have only gained 8 pounds! I am very proud of that seeing before hand it seems like i could put on 8 pounds in a week with no problem! I have always told myself that I wanted to be thinner after having kids than before so im going to hold myself to that~ (and no im not starving myself and my unborn child if your wondering! I just havent used pregancy as an excuse to engorge myself in food!) I also have slept like a baby every night! i baracaid myself with pillows and knock out! I do have to get up and pee at least once a night but I go right back to sleep with no problem, I sleep in everyday off i have knowing that those days will soon be numbered! I havent had any major cravings at all and all my tests at the doctors have come back healthy and normal!

I started my 2 week appointments and I go back in to the doctor tomorrow. I also am scheduled to have a stress test on the baby wednesday just as a precaution because of our family history of high blood preassure and heart disease... even though mine is all normal~ i guess its better to be safe. Lately I feel like I have been horseback riding for days because my hips and crotch hurt! =) which means she is one getting bigger and 2 my body is starting to prepare for her arrival... aaahhh!

I think that I have vented enough... But I still need a name for this little girl! so if you have any suggestions send them this way!